Surrender

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This blog is Day 20 of my 30 days of motherhood blogging challenge. Every day, for 30 days, I’m sharing diary-style snippets of my life as a working mum to one cheeky toddler. Consider this part creative experiment, part self-therapy. Feel free to play along at home! You can read days one to 21 here.

Today was an interesting day.

You know those days when you feel off-kilter from the moment you wake up? Like you can’t quite find your groove?

Maybe it was the fog that blanketed our neighbourhood until about 10.30 am. Or maybe it was that Zoey slept in until 7 am, which was glorious but also disorienting (I woke up with a fright, like I was late to the airport or something).

I wasn’t the only one feeling out of sorts. Zoey woke up on the wrong side of the bed, too. She was moody all day, but so was I, so it’s hard to tell where the cycle started – was my mood rubbing off on her or her mood rubbing off on me? Probably a bit of both.

We didn’t do much today. We had plans to meet a friend, but she picked up a tummy bug from her niece which has spread through their family like wildfire (daycare bugs are honestly the worst).

I hope Zoey isn’t coming down with anything – she barely ate all day (although that’s not uncommon for her) and she’s had a lot of mini meltdowns. It’s hard to know what’s ‘normal’ toddler behaviour and what’s a sign that she might be under the weather. I suppose the cause doesn’t really matter; the solution is almost always more quality time. Tom was home, too, so together we smothered her with cuddles and songs and attention.

We surrendered to the day that was and found moments of calm among the chaos. Like camping out on the floor and reading ALL the books.

Until tomorrow,
Jess x